A good friend of mine passed by the house last night to see me before our birthday and the conversation was short and intimate, something I realised lacks in most the conversations today. Where’s the honesty? The intimacy? Where are the deep, meaningful words? Why do we rarely challenge each other to be better than we are now?
Seeing as it’s my birthday I decided to gift myself a clean slate. The past year has been my most challenging one..yet and I’m sure it won’t get any easier from now (I can feel my parents letting go). Do I have a plan for the rest of my life? I do, but it’s not solid. I however have an idea of how I’d like my life to go.
I need to let go of past mistakes. Instead of constantly over thinking a situation I cannot change, I’m learning to accept it and aim to be better.
I need to let go of friendships/relationships that aren’t benefitting me. If they’re not feeding my flame, they are helping to put it out.
I need to spend more time with family. There’s nothing as painful as watching the coffin of a loved one being lowered, and you stand there wishing you had one more chance..
I need to do more things that excite me. Travel more, be friendly to everyone even those who aren’t friendly in return, read more
I need to get better at what I love doing, because that’s what makes me who I am.
I need to learn to say no and not have to give any reasons for my decision.
I need to learn to live a life with no regrets.
If you knew me yesterday, that’s great but you don’t know me today. However, I understand that your opinion of me is possibly due to my past actions. I can’t change that but at the same time I can’t let your opinion of me prevent me from living my life.
I’m really excited for this next year ahead of me and I can’t wait to see what it has in store for me. 🙂
You can’t win the war against the world, if you can’t win the war against your own mind.